I started a new study this week. It's a book called Made to Crave by Lysa TerKeurst. I saw her speak at Feminar in 2010 when I went with some gals from my church back in Texas. I'm doing the study with a lot of other women but I don't see any of them, because it's online. It's all being organized through a lady named Melissa Taylor and you can check out her blog HERE.
We started on Monday and read chapter one and then today we are doing the personal reflections that are at the end of the chapter. I decided to share a little bit of my thoughts that Chapter one brought about.
Lysa mentions a t.v. ad that a weight loss company did. In it there is a little orange monster that personifies craving. This little monster “chases us around, tempting us to eat unhealthy foods”. In my experience, I would say that my craving personified, would be very soothing in appearance. It would be something approachable and soft and cuddly because I usually nurture my cravings with food. I welcome it and then after I’ve submitted to the craving, I feel guilty. That’s when it turns ugly. My craving is a shape shifter. After I’ve given in, the craving immediately taunts me.
“You are so weak” it snears. “I’ve got power over you!” “There is not a thing you can do to resist me. You might do it for a day, even a week. But then you will come right back to me!”
And I know, it’s so right! That has been my response, my behavior. My craving has me trained.
I have heard before that we all have a God-shaped void in our lives that only he can fill. I believe this to be true. Lysa talks about the idea that God made us to crave. Crave God. Only God. I want to be there. I realize that I try to fill up myself with other things. Satan is only too happy to watch me do it. He wants to do everything he can to take our hearts and minds off God. I’ve failed time and time again and I feel like a failure.
But I know that I am a child of God and I don’t have to fail again. I know that by feeding myself scripture and consuming God’s word daily I will be empowered to fight my bad cravings. Maybe if I listen harder to what my craving is saying then I can know exactly how to pray and where to read. I’m going to start fighting my craving.
So little craving, you better watch out! You may have had me trained but I’m looking to a new Trainer now and you are going down!