Change

I think everyone reacts to big changes in their lives differently. You may be one who embraces it fully and adapts easily, you may be one who fights against change kicking and screaming, and you may do a combination of the two. I am willing to bet that there are more responses then the ones I mentioned but for the purpose of this post we will go with these.

I am the combination. On the outside I do what needs to be done. I plan and I participate in the decision making. But on the inside...I am crying and wailing like a baby. "I don't want to do this!", "Why can't it just be this way?!", "Why do you want me there, God?!", "Why do you want me to do that?!"

It's sad to say but it's true. I'm a big whinner! How quickly I forget that I asked God to change my life when I asked Him into my heart! How quick I am to also forget that I ask God to change my life on a daily basis when I pray for His will and direction in my life!

I can't have it both ways. I can't do God's will and choose my own path. So, God tells me "Suck it up! For now, you are where I want you to be and you will be going where I want you to go."

He's in charge. I'm not. The end.