I looked up the word pang and this is the definition: a sudden sharp feeling of emotional distress. This definitely describes what I have been going through. There have been times throughout this last month where I have had at least one pang a day if not more. Singing a song in church and looking at my friends while they praise our Saviour--pang. Having a last day of boot camp with a beloved friend--pang. Packing--pang. Garage sale--pang. Seeing a friend's new baby girl--pang. Hearing of a sweet friend moving back, who I won't be able to be here to welcome home--pang. Preparing for a family get together and having to say good-bye--pang. Hearing of everyone's future plans that won't involve me--pang. There are many more and you can probably relate and be able to add a few.
So I have been sad at the thought of moving away from TX again. Ecspecially this town that Troy and I have lived in for the majority of our married lives. This is where we have found our church home and where we have had (and lost) our children. I am comfortable here and with who I am here. I love my friends. I love being close but yet just far enough away from our family. I guess that is the big inconvenience of it all. I am going to have to step out of my comfort zone, again. I guess that is part of the angst too. Just the knowledge that I have of a previous moving experience and how uncomfortable it was for awhile. I did come to love it and I really miss people from Glasgow and I miss the life we had there also. So I guess it will be uncomfortable at first and then I will just have to pray and have faith that I will love it. I already know that the scenery is gorgeous and I know where I am going to live there for at least the next 10 months. So far, everyone I have met there has been nice. I know that there is a Sonic Drive-In so that is always good news to me! I just hate "good-byes". I wish we didn't have to say good-bye.
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Melissa,
ReplyDeleteThis was me 15 months ago. We needed to find a new way, financially, to survive and looking out of town seemed to be the way to do it. I was so excited to be working at A&M and at the prospect of a new adventure in our lives but I grew up in Lufkin and Grant in Nacogdoches. It was all we knew. It was all our boys knew. PANG PANG PANG! But we've found our church family here, good jobs, and good schools for our boys. I still feel lots of pangs seeing old friends' pics and postings on FB. Seeing church activities that we've missed. It still doesn't seem 100% like "home" but we're getting there. Hang in there.
I can empathize, moving is never easy! Even when you know that you have new adventures ahead of you it doesn't stop those pangs. Hang in there!
ReplyDelete2 Samuel 7:1-22
ReplyDeletevs 10 and vs. 19 have been key phrases for me in the past. David has just been told to build a temple for the Lord and no longer meet in the tent. He was telling David to "plant" the people. He even gave them peace from enemies so that they would be able to plant in peace. Obviously, I hope you will "plant" yourself in this new place God is moving you to! I pray that you will have peace from your enemies (homesick, worry, loneliness). I also take heart in knowing that His temple is permanant through Jesus Christ. We may feel like tent dwellers on Earth but we have a home which we must always stay firmly planted in. I always remind myself that God wants to "plant" himself in the hearts of people around me. My job is to build His temple up in these new places He moves me to. Love you all so much. Thanks for sharing your heart with us. From one tent dweller to another : ) gail
You will always be part of our family, no matter where you live. I am praying that God eases your transition and that you are quickly and happily brought into a church family, that Josh and Troy adore their new schools and that Melissa finds friends who will love her like we do. God is in control and He bears that burdens that we cannot. Love ya friend!
ReplyDeleteI read this the other day from one of my favorite books. I meant to bring it to The Grind, and forgot. This is a passage from "His Princess: Love Letters from Your King". The book takes scripture and puts them as if they are in letter form from God to His princess! :-)
ReplyDeleteMy Princess, Go where I send you.
You seek Me for your place in this world, and My answer to you is wherever you are standing. I love to hear you pray to be used by Me. Nothing pleases me more than when your love flows warm and free. When you're willing, I am ready to strategically place you somewhere to be blessing. Even the smallest effort can lift the burden of someone else when you are living by My power. You won't always understand why I send you to do things that no one else will see, but you don't work for others--you work for Me. What you do now will be seen by all on the other side of eternity. So go where I send you today, knowing that I have prepared the way.
Love,
Your King who is the Way
Be stong and steady, always enthusiastic about the Lord's work, for you know that nothing you do for the Lord is ever useless.
1 Corinthians 15:58
Melissa, you are so talented and have a precious love of Jesus. I know it is hard right now....I was in the same place just 2 1/2 years ago and I was a MESS! God is always, always, always faithful, though. He will not send you somewhere to give you a worse life. There will be things you miss, I still miss so much about CS, but you will begin to notice the blessings. I can promise that! I hate to see you hurting. It makes me hurt too. I do know that you will be blessed, though. You and your precious family are covered in prayer as you go. I pray, if nothing else, that you feel the peace that comes with that.
I love you, my friend. I still have a little pillow hanging on my door that a certain sista in Christ (you, of course) got for me. It reads: "The fabric of friendship is strong, but stretchy" :-) I think we've proven that, and your other friendships will hold true to that too! Hang in there.
Praying,
Leigh