My Joshua turns 5 tomorrow. Time has flown by and I was unprepared for how fragile my children could make me. I am constantly praying for them and wondering about them...their present...their future. They have no idea how much I love them. Thought I show them and tell them all the time. They will not know of this love until they have children of their own.
I know that tomorrow Joshua will have 2 mothers who are thinking about him and how big he is. I know I am the blessed one. Praise God for this Gift! I have been able to watch him grow and take pride in what he is becoming. I have all the memories and know that if given the chance, there will be more memories to make.
I grieve for his other mother. For her loss. I hope that one day she will be able to look at all I have sent for her and that she will be blessed with the knowledge that she gave him life and a home. She wanted the best for him. I love her and I thank her for making a hard decision that has brought so many people joy. I pray that one day we can know eachother and be friends. That I can share with her our story.
Joshua, God knew where you were and saw exactly what you needed: A Father and Mother, a home. He saw Daddy and Mommy and knew exactly what we needed: You. God knows our every need and our every desire and he has a perfect plan for our lives. I pray that you will learn to let God lead you and that you will trust that His ways are GOOD. At 5 there is so much that you have learned but there is still so much to go. You are a joy, you are my heart. I look at you and still see the cute dimpled little baby boy who would gnaw on my chin when teething. I see the echo of the man you will become. The strength, the courage, the tenderness, the intelligence and the humor.
I will always love you. "Forever and ever, whole wide world."
I am a stay at home Mom raising 3 boys with my husband of 12 years. My oldest son is 6, the middle is 6 and the baby is 3. They keep me busy and I love it! We moved from Texas to Virginia in July of 2010, where my hubby has taken a job as an Assistant Professor at Virginia Tech. I love reading, scrapbooking, crafting, cake decorating, baking, playing with my kids, listening to music and learning about my Lord and Savior. I welcome any comments as long, as they are respectful.
I read a total of 76 books in 2010 and my goal for 2011 will be 85.
11/25/11UPDATE--I didn't put into consideration that last year I added books of the bible to my list and this year I am not...I didn't keep last year's list but I am pretty sure that at least half of the 76 were just books as opposed to the Bible. So I think a new goal of mine will be to have read 50 books. I only have a month left...